Homesick yet at home

Kendra sneaks into the room above the newly built Pool Hall laying down her guitar and pulls her journal from her bag placing it on the desk there she smiles as the desk reminds her of the one in her Daddy's library at home. She sits down taking a pen and after sighing deeply begins to write.

I wanna go home... yet everything that makes home home .... Daddy, Niyol, Rena... they're all here so maybe I AM home.

Everything is so much more different than I thought it'd be. I can't believe I miss the feeling of grass under my bare feet or the sound of birds waking me up at the crack of dawn but I do miss that so much. I know I could go to Grandpa's place but it's not the same .... just like home wasn't the same when everyone left to come here; the grass and and birds and the trees were still there but it wasn't the same without them. I guess I want the best of both worlds.

Daddy told me today he's bought some country land just outta town a few acres and he's having the whole house moved there next week, I'm so glad, maybe then I'll feel more settled, right now it's real hard to call this place home when I'm sleeping on a warehouse floor and living out of a bag.

Daddy was fixing up his bike yesterday and watching him brought back so many memories of the hours and hours I've spent watching him do that, listening as he taught me what went where and what the parts were called and how to make it all work. I love being around him again though, and I'm glad I'll see more of him now I'm living where he works .. he's letting me work in the bar too and says I can perform there ... if I don't wear short skirts HAHA! So I went shopping today for new "City" clothes, I say "City" clothes cos the clothes he's been complaining about are the same clothes Ive been wearing at home without a word for the past few years ... guess it's only a problem now cos people outside the family can see. Ah well, I'd rather make him happy than not I really hate it when he's mad at me or I upset him accidentally....

I think I did that, upset him that is, I need to talk to him alone but the bar was so busy today and there was so many strange people and still don't like being round strangers it was real tough to not hide behind Daddy like I used to when I was a kid. Maybe when we have our house and we're all living together again it'll be easier to get him alone. I really miss our alone chats. I'm glad he lets me hug him lots here like at home though, I was worried he wouldn't cos he has to be The Canis and stuff and I think that would have broken me if I couldn't but YAY I can so that's good. It's weird this wanting to be grown up and do my own thing but I still wanna be his baby girl always.

Met cousin Angel again ... Geez she's gonna get me in trouble I can tell ya. Briefly met cousin Kisho, kinda quiet Japanese cowboy HAHA. Niyol talked to Daddy too, and he said it's all good and I'm so glad for him.

Talked to some girl who seemed interested in Niyol, she'd better be good to him or I'll gut her myself.

Ya know I was thinking. I don't know why Daddy is so worried about be being with boys, there ain't a man I've met yet who can hold a candle to him and I ain't accepting anything less.