Kendra Yoshikawa pulls her battered journal out of her holdall and finds a pen. Laying down on her stomach on the bed in the warehouse Shika had let her crash in she found a clean page and after a few moments of chewing thoughtfully on the end of the pen began to write...It's official, I'm gonna be a fucking nun!
I was so excited when Daddy called and finally said I could go stay with them in Little Tokyo, and now ... I dunno, it's gonna be tough.
I hated the journey there, the subway was the worst, really didn't like being underground at all and was so glad to finally step out above ground only to find it all so fucking dark!! I think it'll take me a while to get used to not being surrounded by trees and fresh air.
Kinda glad I found Daddy so quickly after that although I doubt there's much anyone there could do to hurt me much, least not without one hell of a fight....
Thing is... all those years of Rena Mom and Daddy and Niyol showing me how to fight and protect myself and now, when I'm finally let out into the big bad world they wrap me in cotton wool and I ain't even given a chance to say hi to a guy before he's warned off me and threatened with death! Geez! I'm fucking 17 years old and I ain't gonna be allowed any friends at this rate!
It was good to see Daddy again though and give him lots of hugs... I missed him like crazy... I know he means the best and wants to look after me and I love him more than anything for it, just drives me nuts sometimes. I need to find my way here, let people know I ain't some fragile doll and he ain't gonna make it easy but well ... when it comes to Daddy I just can't get mad for too long dammit! He's be best man I know.
And Niyol... damn that boy gets bigger every time I see him! Like climbing a fucking mountain jumping on his back now! Must have been working out lots too while they've been away ... more and more like Daddy every day but still My Bobo deep inside and I adore that! I know it's tough for him, Daddy's shoes are big and a lot of people expect him to fill them but I know my bro will find his own way and do his best to keep Daddy proud on the way. I think he's gonna be worse than Daddy for keeping the guys away though... sigh. Just cos he can't ask for a girl's number don't mean I gotta be all virtuous too. It ain't like I'm gonna just go with just any guy, I ain't dumb, but it's fun to flirt and play a little.... definitely gonna have to talk to him.
Only saw Rena Mom briefly before I came here to crash, was so tired after the journey, missed her too .. even if she's STILL getting on at me about my language ... HAHA! Don't know when she's gonna just realise I'm Daddy's girl through and though and give it up. I love her to bits though and a part of me does wish I was more like her... she has this ... silent power ... it's hard to describe... she doesn't say much but she seems so strong. Anyway I'm glad for her everyday I think about my "real" mom...well what Daddy told me about her anyway since I don't remember ... she's not the woman I wanna be and sometimes I feel myself losing control like Daddy said she did and I hate it ... I have to catch myself real quick and pull myself back in... I don't want Daddy hating me like her. I almost lost it tonight .. maybe cos I was tired I don't know but all the damn bugging me about my clothes and then threatening any male who came within 100 yards just made me wanna scream... got it just in time though. I know Daddy would beat me all the way back home and locked in me in the goddamn attic if I hadn't and disrespected him in front of people.
He said something tonight that made me wonder if he's just waiting for me to turn into her. Talking about some guy in a suit, didn't get his name, around my age, nice looking too, apparently related somehow. His mom I think was called Sakito and his Pa some dude called Kron, seemed Daddy and Kron used to be best friends ... like Daddy and Uncle Janus now but this Sakito woman stole him away. Seems Sakito tried to kill Angie Mom too once... I wonder if there's anyone out there who doesn't hate her. Anyway, this kid, a cousin or something probably seemed to want to make good with Grandpa, but Daddy don't trust him cos of his ma. I said it ain't his fault who is ma is .. just like it ain't mine and Daddy said "The apple dun fall far from the tree".. sigh. I'm gonna have to do my best to keep reminding him that this apple fell from HIS tree and not Angie's although some of her roots might have joined with his.
So Shika let me stay in this warehouse, poor Daddy, his bar ain't built yet, some trouble with construction workers or something but it's gonna be awesome and I gotta make myself useful an get to know the place I guess... and get used to it being so fucking dark... anyway I'm beat... gotta crash!
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